Through this journey I have learned a few things-
Not everyone is cut out to be a Dr. or a Nurse. It takes a special person in order to be one of these. Almost anyone can go and get the certification, but it takes someone that is above and beyond in order to actually BE one. I've seen some people say they were a Dr. or Nurse./ or going to be one or the other and couldn't believe it. I just hope that that extra bit flourishes and they aren't just doing the actions, but actually care. You can tell the ones that care. Those are the ones that make a difference in the world.
I've also learned that I am sick and tired of people and their falseness. I am flat out sick of it. If you are going to be my friend, then be my friend. Don't smile at me while on the inside you want to punch me. Don't waste my time. Don't send me false notions and think it will be okay. And stop dwelling on trivial shit when more important matters are at hand. I know that some people are my friends and they have things going on. I get that, but in the end they really CARE and they think of me and we are genuinely concerned for each other.
I am so sick of it. Just flat out tired. I have a 'friend' here that does my hair. And she doesn't even know if I am dead or alive. I told her I was having surgery and in the hospital. And I haven't heard a damn thing other than 'We'll be thinking of you'. That was last week. I refuse to text her. I refuse to go the extra mile anymore. That is finished.
There are not very many people that I will go to bat for but let me tell you, Ducky (Nekirena) is one of those people I will. She has been one of the people who have called to check on me and let me know she is there. She has been there for me over these past few weeks, without just knowing she was there, I don't think I would have came as far as I have. So the person who is leaving her shitty honor, while you have that right to do what you want, Fuck you. Seriously, fuck you right in the ass with a pineapple. Since I have a pretty good idea of who it is (and no I will not say who I believe it is) you deserve the shitty life you have. Asshole.
I've just realized I am so done with so many things while all this stuff was happening. I love being the smiley nice person. It made my experience better. One of the Dr.'s even complimented me that I was one of the patients that made his day. I always had a huge smile for him and I was always so sweet. And he just sighed happy at me and smiled. That made me feel good. Being who I am makes me feel good. I had hugs from the nurses when they found out I was leaving. I had moments where we just hung out and talked at night. I will treasure all those people who touched my heart (and my insides too lol) over this journey.
I am going to start a new journey soon. Since I was 18 I've had a lot of things happen in my life. Up until this point I thought I was handling them, but I'm not. I need help. I need someone to help me mentally. I need to stop being so reclusive and be me. And I need to stop just blowing things off that bother me. While I always feel you need to pick and choose your battles, I am not going to just blow off certain things.
This is what I meant by a change. These things need to be done for me.
I just hope that I have the strength to carry on with them.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for you genuine well wishes and concern. I thank you for your prayers, your blessings and the moments that I crossed your mind and you genuinely cared for me. Thank you. They mean more to me than I could ever express. Thank you seems so small in comparison to how I really feel.
I am home. I've showered and feel more human. I am damn sore mostly in my back from it locking up yesterday. A lil in front not bad.
Pizza and salad for din din. Hah. And then a pain pill.
No more stinky moonie!!!! Yay!!!
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I'm glad you are home and feeling better! :)
Welcome home Moonie, and glad all went well for you :)
YAY for you washing the stank off.
Nothing like a hot shower to make you feel better
Yay for being HOME!!
Yay For Showers!!
Yay for Pain Pills
:-)
Fuck it- YEAH FOR PIZZA!
;)
Welcome home Moonie.
yayyyyyy!! glad you're home and smelling your sweet self again. you need something to wash that pain pill down with? Like Jim Beam or Jager? lol jk o.0
You're home and getting back into your own skin - lol! Hurray!
I am sorry for the lose of your sponge bather.
I am feeling wonderful. I have only a lil pain. I've been sleeping on and off. Tomorrow I may get to go home.
I am so happy its over.
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Me too!
It will be great when you can get back to your regular routine...!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
YAY!!!
I was gonna call you, but, thought you would need the sleep!!
Hugs
Woohoo!!! Miss u Moonie baby!!!~smushyhugs~
YAY YAY YAY YAY! :)
Yeah!! Moonie is coming back!! :)
Lol yay! I think tomorrow as in Wed. I'll be out. Wooot!
Woot Woot!!
Haha I just watched my nurse lay the smack on a breathing specialist. It was pretty awesome.
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Cool. Sometimes 'specialists' think that they are gods, yet the nurses know more than many of them!
He scuttled back in here and gave me one. Lmfao.
Glad you have a good nurse!
I wanna be Moonies Nurse!! >:-)
(I'm thinkin what he really wants is to play doctor) And...*wavin at Moonie* You don't know me but I hope you feeling chipper again very soon. Seems your presence is in great demand here.
akkk *you'll. Darn new people who can't type. *shakes head*
Well out of icu. Which is a great thing. Means my levels are regulating. They put me in a private room because of my limitations. It has a cute couch and a window!
I have a lot I want to say, but its way too long to type on the phone. My mind is swirling with a lot of thoughts about just people in general and certain ideas.
Ahhh the wonders of the mind.
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Well glad to hear you have your own room...now you can let it all hang out and not worry about some old man in the next bed having a heart attack over it!!! lmao Hugs to you and I and your whole gang hope you are out the hospital soon!
The other part of your entry? You are now leaving us scratching our heads and going wtf?
Moonie, I hope everything goes well and your able to get some rest , We're all thinking about you and will be glad when you are out and safely at home.
Its good to hear you are out of icu hun, keep smiling that pretty smile. Even when you dont wanna, in which case grab your boobs ;) lol x x
Glad you are out of ICU. Sending healing thoughts your way.
I'm so glad you're out of the ICU. So picture us posing on your cute couch? :)
Hurray! Another step closer to being home!
We miss you, chica!
I am getting ancy to get this over with. Just a couple more days. They are planning on moving me out of the icu at some point. We'll see how that goes.
Today is going to be a quiet day. I told my dad to just stay home. I need the quiet and thinking right now. I am not scared, or really nervous, just ready to be done and be home. I have a feeling this has been going on for awhile. Change is in the air after I get situated.
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Kinda goes with out saying. Somethings will change.
1. Your'll be missing some inners....
May even weigh less O_o sucked way thou to loss weight. just a ounce or so lol
2. you'll feel better thou. :D
Hang in there Moonie.We are all rooting for you here and sending healing thoughts your way.
Get well soon!!!!
All my love,MooniePie!!!
:) Only a few more days sis.
Tomorrow is the scope at 10 am. Then perhaps within the next.few days they will remove it. Hopefully. I get to eat something, but they forgot a tray.
Yeehaw.
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Be dancing naked in the room when the doctor shows up in his wingtip shoes with a dead chicken in hand! Be sure there is much blood scattered about from the dead chicken.
"OK Doc! I've blessed the procedure, lets get that fucker outta there!!! Lets go do, that voodoo, that you do, so well!"
Heh
I get pizza! Fuckin pizza, man! And surprise food!!!
Get well soon Moonie! *huggles*
Mel2
YAY Pizza! I'm glad they remembered your food. I know the one time I had to be in the hospital for jaw surgery, they brought me full tray of food, and couldn't understand why I cried when I had to send it back *mouth was WIRED shut* :(
Get better so you can go home! :) xoxoxo
So far this is where its at:
They are going to redo the procedure of the tube and scope to get more stones. I have a stint in now, but they.would rather see if they can get more stones before surgery. It is a lot easier to do the scope again, then have to re open me if stones get lose. Then after a few days they will remove my gallbladder. I made it clear I want it out before I leave. I'm over this.
I also made it clear I want a damn sammich lol
Ima get jello bishes!
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Orange jello??
Red biddy jello, or green :P
Orange!!! And I got broth and apple juice! Hell to the yeah!
J-E-L-L-O. Is it alive? ♥
Jello shots could only enhance your situation.
Orange jello is GOOOD! glad your doing better . now you make them give you what you want.
there is alot you can do with jello..... i vote on jello shooters, like a pea shooter, just with jello.... its fun if its the red jello lol
Red jello for me....:) Hope you get out of there soon!!
Now I have to see the hematologist about my factor 5. Its a defect gene that makes me clot too much and can cause clots. Since being on blood thinners, they had to give me some plasma because I was a lil thin.
Yay learning about mooniepie and her funkies!
Ps. I have boogers.
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-hugs- oh and here is a box of kleenex for the boogers keep your fingers out of your nose now
let me know when your blowing bubbles......lol
Hey, factor 5, my mum has issues with that too. It will all work out and it's good to get it all out on the table :D
They just came in an talked with me. They couldnt remove the stone from the duct. So they may go in and remove my gall bladder today.
My throat is damn sore from that tube thingy. Ugh.
I sound like an old lady. Hah
And leave my abundance of peroids alone, morri. I'm too lazy to take them out lolol
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It'll all work out hon. Hugs and Kisses!! Just get better!!!
Hey hun just thought id leave you a little message to say i hope you feel better soon. Try to leave those male nurses alone... a little :P hugs xx
Ooo more rx please LOL*huggs*
Are you sure it was the tube down your throat that made it sore? You was talking about the sexy nurse who wore white that you was seeing as Frosty the Snowman when you had nothing to drink that night. ;)
Be well Moonie- we all miss you.
i am sure its from the sexy nurse. lol ;)
hugs, just get all fixed, so you can get your happy tail home.
Hee hee sorry Moonie, I was just curious :P
just my pervy conclusion, but I do believe they enjoy being down Moonies throat and finding excuses to stay in it. ;) You shore do got a purty mouth lol
I am feeling much better. They went in via my throat and removed the blockage from the stones in the duct of my gallbladder. Now its waiting to see when they will do the.removal. it will be before I go.home.
I miss my peoples.
Thank you for sending me your well wishes.
I cant.wait till I can get back on my laptop.
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Just trying to visualize the procedure made me turn green...
You are a trooper, hon.
Looking forward to your speedy recovery!
*mwah* get back soon I miss my Moonie:):):)
missing you too.
Missing you and hearing your laughter. I'm also trying to figure out what the deal is with the excessive periods.
hugs to the Moonie! Glad you're feeling better, hope they do it soon so you can go home.
Today is the first proceeder. To remove the.stones. surgery will be for removal before I.go.home.
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All will be well. I is thinking of you sweety! --Hugs--
My mom had some gallstones removed when I was really young. I kept telling people that she was 'having rocks removed from her stomach...'
Ah - the innocence of childhood...lol!
Anyway - we miss you here! Get better!
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That's a cute frowny face. I don't know whether to :) or :| because you need surgery.
I hope it goes well for you @}-;
Ur adorable even when u got booboos:P...hope it goes well hunni*hugz*
Awww I hate I.V's! Of course, they sometimes deliver the best drugs.
Get well soon!
I hopes you get better soon Babe. Hugs and Kisses.
(kicks his own ass for not looking at his phone last night)
Thinking about you and hoping it all goes well for you ;)
Nothing to mess with.......get better soon!!
Awwww Moonie pout. We'll be here waiting for you when you come out.
Sorry , hope you get better soon and no more owie's.
Hope you get well soon!
*pouts with ya*
Keep us updated, and waiting to hear from you soon.
Poor baby...I caught wind of your predicament via Term's journal.
I do hope that you get on the mend quickly without complications.
Get better, amiga!
HUGS YOU
do flirt with the sexy male nurses
Get well soon !!!!!
Take care of yourself Moonie. Get better soon and stay strong! You can handle anything.
I came into the ER a few hours ago. They aren't sure whats wrong but they have a feeling my.gall bladder may need to come out and I have some kinda irritation/infection with my pancreas.
I just had a cat scan and they are going to see if I need surgery tonight. O.o
At least the drugs are good. Heh.
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omg girl, are you in pain? i guess not if the drugs are working? I have had mine removed, it will help a lot. But wow, i thought they did a number of tests before doing surgery. Let me know sweet cakes. *hugs*
My prayers will be with ya hun~huggs~
They do. Some of my blood work came back irregualr. Thats what tipped them off. They gave me some pain pills and anti sickness.
I normally wouldnt bust this out in public, but eh, the drugs mess with my judgement.
:( Wish I could be there to poke your boobies and bring you jello
I could totally go for a Morri hug, boob poking and jello.
Talyn and i were texting and I told her what was going on. She wanted me to leave this comment for her:
from Talyn:: Moonie, I love you! And I am saying my version of a prayer for you "heh". :) Get well soon baby! Love ya, Talyn
): feel better soon sweetness
Thank you. Kell. I was gunna have you let her know for me.
Ugh. I need to realize there are some things I can't eat anymore. I feel like total hell. Blah.
I really have to laugh. There is nothing greater than a big dose of karma wrapped up in a huge ' I told you so'. It makes me point and go ha ha as I go on my merry way.
In other news.. yayayaya The New Odd Thomas book came. I am super stoked. -squee-
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What about sex? That isn't greater? :P
I don't know. I forgot what it was. :(
Wanna help me find out again? -wink wink-
Yay for Karma!! :P and a Hell Yeah for sex! lol
Do ya think you could tell me where to buy some of dat? I have some people I need to pass that on to something fierce...
Oh Moonie... I told you so.
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Terminus
22:41 Aug 30 2012
Sometimes, ya just gotta call it like ya see it :-)
Nekirena
22:43 Aug 30 2012
I love you.
:)
MooniePie
22:48 Aug 30 2012
Yes I do, T.
and THANK YOU for being there through this journey for me too. You were another supporter I had that always let me know they were there. It was scary, but with the love and support I had, it made it a little better.
sahahria
01:02 Aug 31 2012
I know I am often silent, except in comments here and there *big failing of mine*.
But you muh Biddy are far stronger than you know. Unlike the brittle strength that people often try to put forward, you have a strength that has come through challenge, heart ache and hurt; that you choose to be happy makes you stronger than any challenge you will ever face.
Know that. Honor that as you did, and you will shine brighter than you think.
MistakenMuse
05:21 Aug 31 2012
You are strong and you will make the changes that need to happen.
-hugs-
Isis101
03:52 Sep 01 2012
I have to remind myself that you're about half my age, yet you write and think like a person way beyond your young years.
Admitting that you need help on he road to recovery - and in life in general - is a big step. A lot can be said for common sense...
Some people will always be what I call 'air-kiss' friends. They spew out those coined phrases that you always here, yet rarely mean a word of it. It would be better if they said nothing at all - at least that would be more genuine.
And it is good that you have a dear friend in Ducky. Frankly, I don't get why someone would dislike her, as she is such a sweet person...maybe jealously at knowing this, and not being able to be a good person themself? Meh...who knows what's in the mind of an asshole.
PhoenicianDream
09:48 Sep 03 2012
But but... you know I want to donkey punch you ♥